Thursday, February 22, 2007

cny break

this cny break has been the one and only break i have been looking forward to after FLV. this break is mainly a mug-my-ass-off period. a time for me to catch up on my seriously lagging work. considering that i started to skip morning lectures due to my lazy backbone and the pile of untouched tutorials on my sister's bed, i really mean business this time round.

all work and no play makes karen a dull girl. not forgetting to have fun with friends during this cny. going around doing house visiting, getting to know my friends one step further especially my nj friends. laughing at goi's baby photos and realising that one's future isnt a predestinated thing. wow-ing at tiong's huge and pretty house and drooling over his youngest brother. haha.. i guess the best part for me was going back to nj to visit ms ling. no matter how much i detest the school, we all love the familarity we get when we stepped into the school. the running track where we sweated and bled for napfa, students involved in all kinds of after-school activities (sports, dancing, slacking around in the cantenn, CCA) brought back fond memories. i love the feeling of going back to school to chat with a trcher whom i truly repect. talking about the good old days together, and updating each other with our lives, although ms ling had not been very tactful with her words that day, we all love her! =)

while, on the eve of cny eve, nj frens gave me a huge and pleasant surprise. so much of a high-class resturant right? luckily i din fall into their trick completely but i was damn angry and sad over that lousy pair of heels. damn it! to put that aside, the highlight was their sweet revenge. haha.. dingod's tiramisu still rocks the most and it ended literally in a high note with a bottle of white wine.

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our dinner

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tiong's ugly hair (my sweet revenge!)

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dingod's tiramisu. yummy!!!!

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my birthday cake

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the white wine

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trying to open the white wine

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us with royce and white wine

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goi has rashes!!!

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because of the white wine

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us

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us again

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us again again

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final shot! =)

on a sad note, this cny taught me the harsh reality of life - the world is unfair. all of us lead a different life. you cant compare with others because deep down in your heart, you know you are a loser. you try so hard to make things a little better for yourself and everyone but there is always someone who will give you hope and destroy the hope simultaneously. you thought things will take a gd change but everything is just a illusion. it goes against what you want and it does not tally with your upbringings. you start to question yourself are your efforts worthwhile? you dont want to be defeated. you keep telling yourself to push on but will history repeat itself? there is nothing you can do. everything is just not within your abilities yet. positive energy starts to leave your body sliently, leaving you with nothing to fight. you start to give up and not hope for anything.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

purposeful

i am inspired by people who live their lives with a purpose. i hate to do anything aimlessly. i need a target. i want a goal. they give me the drive and power to live. although my efforts may be wasted in the end, i love the feeling of being alive again. i want to keep myself busy, constantly on my toes. i need that strength. i dont want to waste my time going in circles to search for the answer i am looking for. i want and need a purpose in life.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

FLV first gathering

FLV had our first gathering after the event. went to holland village and we went drinking! my liquer ban is officially over. yeah!!! but before that, dinner with liting last night.

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our dinner

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liting!!!!

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Fest La Vie

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pretty stage

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our host

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at holland v

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second grp at holland v

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wala wala

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they are drunk!!!

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cheers! =)

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look at mybay!!!!!

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we had drank too much

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happy faces =)

food for thought why do people change?

Friday, February 02, 2007

FEST LA VIE and my BIRTHDAY!!!

Fest La Vie 07 was a hit!

the whole experience was tiring yet rewarding. we had endless meetings till 11pm on alternate nights before the event and i had to combine both lunch and dinner together for those nights. damn sad for my poor stomach. for the past 2 days, i only had a total of 2.5 hours of sleep during the event. i am such a heavy workaholic that i stayed up on the first night to finish the slides presentation. given the lack of sleep mindset, it was extremely energy draining for me to be on high alert for 4 hours straight during the event. however, all our hard work was paid off. i heard pple say they had never seen such a huge crowd of pple at central forum before. we had the first auction ever held in nus. the wonderful hosts and entertaining performers made our event even more successful.

furthermore, i got to know the committee much better. we had a new member - prog's gd friend, rubbish woman, my new lover, and most importantly, my fellow prog cellmate! CH is a damn strong guy, slacker and gian peng. FLV was fun partly because of the wonderful programme cell. the 4 of us (goi, dabai, ch and i) could get along very well, having fun together during meetings and not forgetting our favourite activity, banging each other. go to the V at central forum and you will get what i mean.

i was talking to goi today about FLV and we realised how much we miss FLV. although i am seriously lagging behind in my schoolwork because of FLV, we want to continue to work for FLV 07. i guess we are just suffering from post event sickness.

one day after FLV was my 20th birthday!!! yeah!!! i had finally reached the big 2! seriously, the age does not bother me now. sadly, i had a lab session on my birthday till 5pm. anyway, i had a simple dinner with my parents outside. this year, my birthday was a simple and quiet affair. in fact, i like it that way. i dont want to spend my birthday partying or drinking thru the night with friends till i puke. i am happy to know that my family and friends remember my bday. that's enough.

due to the lack of sleep, i actually fell asleep in front of the TV after my dinner. i woke up at 10pm sharp to catch my show and then my door bell rang. i thot it was some neighbour and i was too lazy to bother who he/she was. after that, i saw mh, goi, hq and dabai. they bought a bday cake and heinken. thanks guys for making the trip down. pleasant surprise again! =)

today, went to botak jones at clementi to have dinner with liting. i haven seen this girl for sometime and she still looks the same. we started talking about our common friends and we realised how much we care for jiefang, and how much we misses pee. it is just wonderful to know that secondary friends are still by your side after so many years. love them lots!

jiefang, my first time celebrating my birthday without you since we have been friends. it is a very STRANGE feeling. i shall call you soon!!! pick up my call. =)